Nega Single

Visual kei band Nega have announced the release of a new single, called Haunted Jealousy, for November 25th.

Haunted Jealousy, which will also include the b-side Ogress, is set to be released in three editions, each featuring different bonus songs. The TYPE-A will be a limited edition and will come with the song Dorie, as well as a DVD including the PV for Haunted Jealousy. The TYPE-B will come with the songs Islamic and Oboro, while the TYPE-C will come with Ganesh and Inu to antan.

People who purchase all three versions of the single via regular stores will also receive a special DVD as a gift, including footage from one of Nega's latest one-man concerts, held at OSAKA MUSE on July 26th. Those who buy the release via UNDER CODE PRODUCTION's official webstore will receive a different DVD, contaning footage from the band's one-man held at Shinjuku RUIDO K4 on September 13th.

Korean movies that never get old or boring...

The Host. I love this movie soooo so much. I've had this movie since it came out on DVD. One of the funniest, yet, the most ridiculous movies ever.

Those of you who haven't seen it should. So, here's a full plot of the movie, and I mean, I'm going to give you a full plot.

The film opens with an American military pathologist commanding a reluctant Korean assistant to violate protocol by dumping over 100 bottles of formaldehyde down the drain, which leads to the Han River. A few years later, two men are standing and fishing in Han River when one discovers a mutant amphibian which is never shown. He releases the palm-sized creature when it bites him. Four more years later, a man commits suicide by jumping off a bridge into Han River, but not before noticing that there's "something dark, underwater."

In the present day, Park Gang-du (Song Kang-ho) is a seemingly slow-witted man (his father claims he had been that way since a hit on the head many years earlier) who runs a snack-bar with his father, Hee-bong (Byeon Hee-bong). Hyun-seo (Ko Ah-seong) is a schoolgirl and Gang-du's daughter. Gang-du's sister, Nam-joo (Bae Doona), is a national medalist archer who has an unfortunate tendency to hesitate, and his brother Nam-il (Park Hae-il) is an alcoholic former activist who has not done much since graduating from university.

Gang-du is delivering a meal to some patrons, and sees a crowd gathering along Han River. He joins them as they stand near the side of the river and point at something under the Wonhyo Bridge. It is the creature, now grown. It drops into the water, and moves towards shore. Gang-du throws a can of beer into the water near it, and the creature grabs for the can. The other people nearby then begin to playfully toss other pieces of food to it, but the creature disappears from view. A few moments later, the creature appears on shore behind them, and begins to attack and devour people. Gang-du and an American man try to fight the creature, and successfully hit it with a street sign. The creature then bites off the American's arm. As Gang-du runs away, he sees Hyun-seo emerge from the snack bar and grabs her hand without stopping. He then stumbles and unwittingly grabs a different girl. A short distance away, he looks back and sees the creature pull Hyun-seo into the river. Gang-du then sees the monster dragging her on the opposite bank before disappearing into the water.

As the family mourns the young girl in a shelter set up for victims of the attack, government representatives in yellow bio-hazard suits arrive and demand to know who has had direct contact with the creature. Gang-du admits that he has, and the family is forced to the hospital, where Gang-du is quarantined. The Korean government announces that the creature is not only a direct danger, but also the host of a deadly, unknown virus that they claim killed the American whose arm had been bitten off. Gang-du receives a phone call from Hyun-seo, who is not dead, but trapped in a sewer. She is cut off as her cellphone battery runs out. Gang-du tries to explain to others, but his explanation sounds more insane than sane to the people at the hospital. Hee-bong believes his son, and uses up his life savings so that they can escape from the hospital and rescue Hyun-seo. They are then able to obtain a truck, two non-yellow hazmat suits, weapons, and a map of the sewer system around the Han River.

The family search the sewers to no avail. They return to their snack stand at the banks of the Han river to rest for the night. They wake to find the creature watching them. Hee-bong fires on the creature, causing it to attack them and overturn the snack stand. As the creature tries to get at them inside, Hee-bong fires a shot that causes the creature to flee. Hee-bong, Gang-du & Nam-il give chase, firing wildly. Hee-bong is eventually killed by the creature, and Gang-du is captured by soldiers; Nam-il and Nam-joo escape but are separated.

In the hospital, Gang-du overhears that there is no virus: the government is merely perpetuating a charade to save face. The American scientist who lets out the secret claims that Gang-du is infected in the brain. A team of doctors perform a frontal lobotomy on Gang-du. Afterwards, a nurse mocks the seemingly brain-damaged and unresponsive Gang-du. He suddenly takes her hostage with a syringe full of his "infected" blood, his "slow-wittedness" apparently cured by the lobotomy, and escapes to find that he is not in a hospital, but the back of a military truck on the Han River shores. He drives to Wonhyo Bridge in an ambulance.

Hyun-seo has been trapped in a deep sewer pit since she was spit out by the creature. The creature periodically drops off victims into the pit, to store for later. Hyun-seo finds all the others dead or dying except for a young street urchin named Se-ju. Nam-il goes to a college friend for help, and traces Hyun-seo's phone call. He is betrayed for reward money, but cleverly escapes. Before losing consciousness under a bridge, he sends a text message with Hyun-seo's location to Nam-joo. Nam-Joo goes to the bridge, but comes across the creature. She is near enough that she has a shot, but just as she has the creature in her sights, she hesitates. The creature runs past her and she is knocked unconscious. Hyun-seo tries to climb out of the sewer by a rope fashioned from her and other victims' clothes, but the creature snatches her and places her back on her feet. The camera cuts to black as the creature pounces on her and Se-ju.

Gang-du discovers the feeding pit only in time to see the creature dashing away with a child's arm dangling from its mouth. He chases it on land as it dives into the river. Nam-il wakes to see a homeless man who has been tending to him, and with the man's help and liquor, he makes several Molotov cocktails and together they take a taxi to the Wonhyo Bridge. Nam-joo also awakes. She sees the creature and Gang-du run past her and follows them. The three siblings are led to the riverbank, where the creature attacks demonstrators protesting the government's use of Agent Yellow - a chemical weapon highly harmful to humans - against the creature (and non-existent virus). Police press back the demonstrators, trying to hold them back. The crowd finally disperses as the creature comes near to the shoreline. All three siblings meet up briefly on top of the bridge, but Gang-Du leaps from the bridge to chase the creature.

Agent Yellow is released and incapacitates the creature temporarily. Pushing through the poisonous fumes, Gang-du pulls out the two seemingly lifeless children from the creature's mouth. Hyun-Seo had grabbed the other child and had avoided being fully swallowed by grabbing onto a large tooth but the three siblings discover she has died. The creature revives and tries to return to the river. Enraged, Gang-du grabs a street sign and begins to battle the creature. Nam-il also begins to throw Molotov cocktails at it that he had prepared previously. The creature, apparently terrified of fire, continues to flee. The homeless man whom Nam-il met appears and douses the creature in gasoline, but Nam-il accidentally drops his last bottle as he attempts to throw. Nam-joo picks up one of the lit fragments with her arrow and shoots it into the creature's eye, causing it to burst into flames, screaming in agony. The creature makes a last attempt to flee towards the protection of the river, but Gang-du finally impales it with a street sign.

As Nam-joo and Nam-il cradle their dead niece, Gang-du manages to revive Se-ju. In the epilogue, we see Gang-du and Se-ju living as a family in the rebuilt and cozy-looking snack bar, sometime in the winter. One night Gang-du believed he saw something move outside. He gets his rifle but then sets it down, believing it was his imagination. A televised US Senate press release - claiming that the Korean "disease crisis" was caused by "misinformation" - is drowned out by their conversation. The child asks him to turn it off, as he finds it boring, and they eat dinner.

I have nearly killed this movie just watching it over and over and over and over and over again.

Everything about this movie makes you wonder WTF!! and just have a good laugh about it. The characters, especially Gang du, the main character, the dumbest of them all. He is just, how can I say. Stupid, but that's what makes him so funny.

I love the dad in this movie, he is the most funniest of them all eventhough he doesn't really do much, especially Nam il... and the sister, Nam joo, the slowest of them all. That makes up the most loser family of all.

Want to talk about a great director, Boon Joon Ho is one of the greatest for a horror/somewhat comedy type of film. I've seen his previous works and yet, with the same cast, and this one is the best ever.

Untitled Poem #1

Wish I was never here, this life of mine, I don't care
Sit with my head down in the cradled position, knife firmly in my hand
Tears pouring like rain, blood kept still on my wrist
If I died I won't be missed.
Because I am hated, my life is ill-fated,
Constantly being ignored
I hate my life, I hate this soul, this body created and borrowed
So distant, yet I'd rather I was dead, even my family doesn't care
The one favorite I've chosen has been pulled away
This black void has emptied, sorrow has returned once again.

I've been feeling highly fatigued lately...

Mood: fatigued Listening to: XodiacK - Kimi no koe

It is as if I'm going to pass out or something. I don't know. I've tried seeing if it was me being tired or something but, I look at my spinning mood ring and it's been black for a while and it's not me being tired at all. Yesterday, I'd been feeling like my heart is pushing hard to keep me stable. This all started after I finished up with making these fanmail runs to Hikaru Utada and feeling encouraged by everyone here.

Again, I don't know what it is. I have nearly $200 but, I'm saving it for something more, eventhough I still need to get checked up at a doctors office or clinic. I'm going to continue to fight this off no matter what. But, I may have some kind of illness that keeps making my heart feel so heavy all the time.

I have fought it for so long, I guess this is a sign, saying that my body is ready to give in... but whenever I'm ready.

If only there was some kind of way I could put myself in cryogenetic sleep, I'd do it. Maybe then, when I wake up years after, I'd feel better. I slept, waking up, feeling really weakened.

November 1st, 2008 Just thought I'd share an random entry from my journal

Well, like wisely... so much for family. My oldest sister, Kelly, she's been here since September and well, I've gotten the thought that she is my ticket out of this hellhole, but apparently, her fiance's parents are supposed to be looking for a place for them in Philadelphia until they get their own place. Once that happens, I'm stuck here AGAIN for the "fifteen hundredth" time.

What is so wrong that I can't even take my own life? I've tried slicing my wrist open plenty of times and more, I even pushed down hard as hell to the point where's that I could feel the pain while doing so. I went fast and I went slow, but the outcome is always the same. No scar, no nothing, not even a single drop or sight of blood. I HATE living. Between writing this shit and thinking about it makes me want to burst out in tears.

Wendy thinks that she's going to keep me here likw a prisoner, she'd better think again. Kelly on the otherhand, I'd love the thought of her taking me in, so comes the time I get back onto my feet and well, basically get out in the world. I really don't like thinking about it because I love my niece, Callise to death and want to play every part of it. I don't want to miss a single event. It already came down to the fact that I baby herr but, I wouldn't say that. It's called being an uncle. In my case, one of the best.

I no longer want to be the outsider, but it's permanent. A permanent characteristic, personalized with pain, and sorrow, endlessly.

"Moments of dejection drops us into a pool of loneliness
The soul pulls back, and mourns alone. Nothing seems to hold against the drop,
and yet, everything counts for nothing.
We feel ourselves curiously depersonalized, very far away. Exiled.
No connection anywhere. The spirit of loneliness has taken over.
We have become mere numbers, isolated with an emotion,
symptomatic of victimization.
We are victims of a wrong way of life."

There is no simple word of defining me but there is a name.... Aria Of Sorrow. That's my name.

WHAT is TrUE HAPPINESS

True happiness is a feeling
It spreads like a disease.
There was a time when I found it
But, I lost it with ease.

True happiness is an emotion
Sometimes it means nothing to me.
I have always been a loner
An emotion I sometimes don't need.

This poem. turned into negativety
To care less is what I do.
True happiness is nothing
It isn't even true.

Here's a thought on a piece of my research. How do you detect emotions?

A couple of years ago, I did research on emotions eventhough I already knew so much about it but here is what I stumbled upon during that time...

"Americans detect a person's emotions by looking at his or her mouth, says a new study. Other cultures, like the Japanese focus more on the eyes."

Isn't that quite interesting or what?

I don't focus on the mouth, I focus on the eyes but, at the same time, I can read emotions through words too. Be it typed or spoken. Spoken words, I can sometimes look behind the sound of a persons voice, but that doesn't mean I'm focusing on the mouth. It's sound.